hii! back from malacca. bought one polo shirt, one t-shirt and one pair of sports shoe! and it was super super hot and we walked like crazy.

Hii... Time flies really, and it seems that the older you are, the faster it goes. faster and faster. It is unfathomable, how it already is the last month of 2009 and next year, it is 2010! 2010 sounds really modern, hmm.

Lately, I haven't been doing anything much, characteristic of holidays, no wonder, I start saying that I love homework when I must introduce myself when term starts... no not again, this time I must try to be as sociable as any other year four is. I will hang out more with my friends and destroy the perception of a nerdy terence tim.

Hii! I am going GET MOULDY sooner or LATER! My friends are all off - and I am sure, enjoying themselves - while I am stuck at home, shady from the sunny weather, in the warm sweaty environment of my house, saving electricity, no air-con. PERFECT FOR BECOMING MOULDY! THEY ARE ALL ENJOYING THEMSELVES!. I am going to die of boredom soon. I called SHERMAINE on monday and it says "....An SMS will be sent to the ... phone..." and I realised everyone's packed their bags off to OBS! Me, all alone, except for some other oddballs I sometimes see on FACEBOOK still stuck on this lonely ISLAND of SHADY protection in the sea of ADVENTURE. DRATS.

I am intending to set up a BOOK COUNT on the side of my blog to tally the number of books I read since after the exams, hope I can, sucks, so far only TWO!

hiii. I am back from Malaysia! And, I have dried and cracked lips, dried parts on my face and I broke my record!! I SHIT-ED ONCE in five days!!!

Now I really feel in the mood to write something and I think I better do write them here, before I have nothing to write and stop writing for a long time yet.

Maybe I should write a saga.

"What are you doing?" There, he was before the mirror.

"Do you know who you are?"

"Do you know your purpose?"

"Can you fulfil it?"

"You are borned to win!"

There was a sound of five-fingered shame against his ivory cheeks. slap.

"Yes! You could, no you CAN, inundate her, the beasts in her, she was worthless compared to you. You are a prowess, she is nothing, a fool!"

"You are a winner, you are borned to serve!"

"You can destroy her, for tiding over you, but you know it, Jacob Tilman! It is momentary!"

" You can destroy her, you will ruin her, her soul everything, for the superficiality of her is that of paper thickness!"

"SHE IS, no WAS NOTHING!"

to be continued... after I return from my holidays!

2012... would an apocalypse really ruin the world, whatever, living and civilisation that exists... probable, but for me, unlikely.

However, it made me feel that we could really die anytime, whatever age. If we, or fine I, face death in 2012, won't it be frightening and the least of expectations?

Won't it be a shame, to die after I slogged till my guts and all, and only to die, before the anticipation of the "future"?

Won't it be a waste to learn, that all these years, I never really enjoyed myself, I didn't do what I like, of course not, Studying! Won't it be a regret?

Won't it be a waste to look back at my short life and see that I have achieved far from the most I could, far from what I wanted. See that I was depositing all my hopes in the future which may never come. Ain't I placing all my eggs in the basket only for them to be pulverised by the weakest of balances?

Sometimes, I feel that even now, we should live life to the fullest, because we never know what lies before us. what awaits. if the end was even, maybe near.

hii, finally blogged again after quite some time two weeks? anyway, the exams are over, but I don't feel particularly happy like I used to, blame the trigo paper. I don't feel particularly relaxed, blame the english. I don't particularly relax and enjoy myself, like play computer a lot of just slack around, blame my sudden interest in reading....

so this is how my life been, before the exams was crazy studying, actually not really, started only during the reading days. then after the exams as above. now, I am getting apprehensive, tomorrow getting my diastrous exam results back! I am sure they are disastrous! ahhhhhh... unimaginable, unthinkable... this saturday will be meeting apec spouses at the Jacob Ballas Children's Garden and packing my lugguage to go malyasia on Sunday! Can't wait, I bet that will be the funniest part after the exams, you know, going around and meeting my sister's friend.

Thats all, bye.